Well today is one of those days that I need to get back to being real. Not that I haven't been real in the past but I really have tried to stick to the "positive" aspects of being a missionary in Peru. I don't know the exact audience that reads this blog and I don't ever want to sound insensitive or offensive when it comes to cultural differences. I completely understand that we are the "outsiders" here and that we have not come here to change Peruvian culture but to show them Christ and serve God by serving them.
I also understand that there is wisdom in not ALWAYS sharing what is on my mind and heart (though I might forget the line sometimes :) ALL this being said today I just need to VENT.
If you are not in the mood to listen to my venting or just want to look at pictures, well check the blog later this week, haha!
Ok, so this is already sounding dramatic and I'm not meaning for it to. Today has just been a day that I have felt weary, tired and just plain annoyed.
I'm annoyed that I get honked at about 37 times when I go for the 5 minute drive to pick up Sofia from school
I'm annoyed that I'm out of my favorite
I'm annoyed that because of the way I look (ok, maybe the accent gives it away) that I'm always being treated like I'm incapable of figuring something out or that I have an unlimited bank account
I'm annoyed that I still can only catch about 1/3 of a conversation and I want SO bad to communicate with people here
I'm annoyed at myself for crying 4 times in a 24 hour period
I'm annoyed that Lee and I are probably moving out of our house we have been in for only 7 months.
I'm annoyed that rent in Lima is more than I would ever dream of paying for in the States and that it's in a "safe" area of Lima yet our neighbors got their car robbed at gunpoint a couple months ago
I'm annoyed that Sofia doesn't want to move AGAIN and that as a parent I wish I could change that for her
I'm annoyed that I can't just pick up a cell phone and talk to my mom or my friends because I have to dial up on a computer and half the time one of us can't hear the other
I'm annoyed that it's always cold in my house and there is no reprieve
I'm MOST annoyed that I'm even SLIGHTLY annoyed by ANY of this when there are people a few minutes away that don't get to eat somedays and that are freezing at night
I'm annoyed that there is no beginning or end to our hours as missionaries.
I'm annoyed that we had to go get an MRI on Sofia's head because she continues to have headaches which cause her to throw up
I'm annoyed that all three kids have coughs and runny noses
I'm annoyed that my dad won't get to see Liam during his whole first year of life except for when he was born and then when he's one.
I'm annoyed that I feel like an ungrateful person
Well, how's that for honesty? I'm going to end this on a good note and tell you ALL the things I am Joyous about (well at least most days, just today I have had to remind myself of these ALL day)
I'm thankful that my in-laws and Lee's Grannie are coming tomorrow
I'm thankful for Meche who works with me at the house and that is such a tremendous blessing
I'm thankful that my husband is so good at budgeting (except for the part about having to move houses)
I'm thankful that I live in a place where people are open to the word of God
I'm thankful that Lee is such a good dad and husband
I'm thankful that Sofia and Maddox are in great schools and love their teachers
I'm thankful for friends back home that encourage us, send us packages, email us, call us and pray for us continually
I'm thankful for our church families and supporters who are SO supportive of our work
I'm thankful for the friendships I've made here like Meche, Christina, Leidy, Rocio & Claudia
I'm thankful that I've been able to start my exercise classes and that they are going good
I'm SO thankful that as a mom, my kids give me "do-overs" all the time and still love me
I'm thankful for the people in Villa Maria who continually teach me what it truly means to be simple and grateful.
Well I feel better already. I'm apologizing right now for the length of this blog. It has been a while since I have written an entry like this but I just needed it today. No idea if anyone is actually going to read it but at least I know my mom & Holly will, HAHA. Oh and sorry about not going into so many details about some of the things listed but I was really not wanting to write a book.